Reflections

Hey yor..been 3 days since i've blogged..haha..been out..n slpin too much too..somehow e Zzz monster came and never really took off..although it is my hols..but this is no way to spend it..time is money..hahaha..

n i found out dat i have actually been losing weight and my fat percentage is going down...*smirk*..generally..i gym twice a week..and unintentionally..i've been eating one meal a day..y?..hm..i'm not sure y too..just haven really been hungry lately..guess its a good thing so I won't over eat..haha..not like i ever had..but ya know..prevention is better than cure..better slim now than have to diet later.. (n no...i'm not anorexic..)

i just haven been much of a eater of late..especially after i had dat Prisoner of war training in army last yr where we were held captive and then left to survive in the jungle with nothing but a 'parang' for some 5 days?..cant remember the duration..all i know was that it was long..and i was drained and left there so long that i've became conditioned to eat really really little..probably thats why i haven put on weight all these time..

guess its a good thing..cos many ppl tryin to lose weight would wanna trade places with me..so hey..i'm not complaining..haha..plus i'm slim but not dat skinny..i'm not all bones and skin..haha..if not all dat gym would have gone down the drain..haha..

i always take some time once in a while to reflect on myself..n todae i did the same..maybe i'm mad..but i feel everyone should see themselves once in a while..

todae..went to take a look at my BGS assignment grading and i dunno if i can say i was disappointed..well..e first thing the prof said was "right alan, you did pretty well..better than most ppl..above average"..and when i looked at the report..it was a 'B'..and i asked "a 'B'?"..and she replied "yeah!..most ppl have only gotten a 'C' or worse"..

i din realli care if i was above average..but i just din like a 'B' when i see one..maybe i gotten used to the days in poly..but it din feel good..but at the same time..i didn't really deserve it anyway..cos my attitude towards BGS was poor..

den i studied Sentill's report (A++) and bit by bit realised y i fell so far..cos i really didn't make the mark..now i can choose to blame the prof (esp when she has a reputation for preferential treatment)..n have 2000 ppl agree with me.. ...But i dun wanna do dat..cos dats childish..n pushin away ur own blame..

readin sentill's report...i got reminded so many things of wat made a good report..which allowed me to excel in my poly days and i realised that there were no one else to blame realli..although i was e onli one who went for all the interviews and tried to probe juicy insights that we could write and present about..i wasn't bothered to push when it mattered..where it could be seen..so..i cant realli push the blame can i?...

the prof told me it was a waste..especially when she felt i saved the group's presentation..on final day..but once again..i accept and take responsibility for it..guess its time for some soul searching..the onli person i could be disappointed with was myself..

even though i continue my quest to own businesses..and grades have very little to do with ur career (regardless employee or business owner)...i shouldn't allow my grades to slip jus cos they were modules dat couldnt be used in the real world..

i will bounce back..