fOOd fOr tHot...Pt1

last mon nite..andy boi came over to my bed to n we had a realli realli long chat..abt many many things..biz..the stock markets..wat our parents did n how they got successful..fast cars..cool stuffs..n our private lives b4 the army..

but it was the latter that sort of struck my attention for a while..he seemed quite shocked with my choice of girlfriends in da past..he felt that i should probably have found someone that were closer to my 'level' as he puts it..someone more intelligent n from better backgrounds..

i can still remember quite clearly the way he put it.."dun u tink its like a faultline?..like its jus not natural..like destroyin the perfect family tree.." "dun u wanna look for someone with a family background thats on par with u?.."

this issue got me thinkin...not dat i realli felt i'm from the higher level or anythin..actually i dun realli pay attention to their backgrounds or rather would even prefer if they werent rich..cos they'd prob be spoilt if they were..

but i started to tink of this issue cos i also read a few mths ago on wat Robert Kiyosaki stated was impt for someone to succeed..n one of the things he stated was a partner with similar dreams n goals..

n when i took a trip down memory lane..i found myself not progressin when i was attached..in fact..some could nv understand y i needed to work hard..n e last one demanded alot of attention..maybe its the diff family background that generates diff tinkin n priorities..

fOOd fOr tHot...Pt2

i'm ambitious i admit..i'm not willin to jus go with the flow..n end up an average employee..but its not like i'm money crazy..cos yet again..like Robert Kiyosaki says..

"money is not the most impt thing in life..but it seems to affect everything that is..." married couples quarrel over money..kids get deprived of tiertiary education due to lack of funds..parents end up workin 24-7 n kids nv get to see them..retired parents cant retire in peace..etc etc etc..it does affect everything that is impt..

maybe if i had gotten a partner that were able to look at the big pic..they would hav been able to understand y i had to strive..

feels kinda confused on wat i'll do in da future..qiang had a long talk to me on this issue too..but it din seem to help me make up my mind..i dunno..maybe i'll jus wait..n see wat happens..i'm still young anyway...

Boulevard of broken ships... Pt 1

Wow..haven logged in for a while..so much has happened this week…but none seem to be good news..though it din involve me actually..but it implicated those around me..

Qiang…

Remains the one I worry the most..loads of probs at work and his gf jus wont give him peace..she’s like such a control freak..everything he does is wrong..ridiculous..one of his colleagues were leavin n they had a farewell dinner last nite..qiang informed her early that he wun be joinin her for dinner..she was ok at first but start blowin her top off 2 hours later blaming him for not reporting on wat n where he were..BUT SHE KNEW HE WAS AT THE DINNER!!..

There was dinner at home for her but she chose not to eat it..prob to spike him..n while being angry n frustrated..qiang went to buy her dinner still..n instead of calmin down she made a scene yet again n cried..wat’s her issue man?!?

He bought her a decent meal n had to settle for cup noodles himself to save money..n all she ever does was to repay with temperament..She could nv understand y he had to work OT..n made a big fuss if he had to work late..n when he tries to go home early to accompany her..she complaints too..simply becos he went online when he was home..muz he be physically huggin her 24-7 for him to be considered accompanyin her???..there wasn’t much to do at home..they could surf together or something..

maybe next time qiang should sit down n jus look at her..dat would make her happy…

Work late..its ur fault..come home early its ur fault..farewell dinner its ur fault..
Its ur fault..Its ur fault..Its ur fault..Its ur fault..Its ur fault..Its ur fault..

Boulevard of broken ships...Pt 2

Wendy…

Received a msg from wen ytd n found out that she broke up with her bf…again…told me they quarreled a lot n had to go separate ways…she even got drunk on wed nite…n were carried home..sheesh..she was nv drunk in her whole life b4..

i dun understand y ken has to pick issues all the time too..i bumped into them e last time n he was starrin at me as if he was tryin to kill me with his eyes..

He even made an issue of a photo dat wen n me took while they were not together b4 they patched..WTH...can he wake up his ideas n start growin up..fancy N level graduate who inspires nth more than to play Lan for life..n expects to earn 10k/mth in da future..hello!! *knocks on head* “is there anything inside????”

She deserves someone way better than him man..n he doesn’t realize it..stupid ass..he would nv need to wear a helmet for anything..cos he is a walkin one – Nothing ever gets in..

Boulevard of broken ships...Pt 3

Jenn...

mOi gan mei mei similarly dropped me a couple of msg too...but at abt 3am..apparently she n her bf jus quarelled..over somethin that is once again ridiculous..he left some ashes in the toilet..and expected her to clean up his mess..when she refused..he snapped n insisted its her duty as a gf to do so..wats e deal u spoilt brat!!..clean up ur own mess man..such a disgrace to the male race..Chauvenist..ego..pig..

Ego cant go worse than this man..n while he has all kinds of excuses not to spend time with her like no money n time..he can spend his weekends out with his guy frens..wats the deal man..n he expects her to stay home n clean his room!!..ego ego ego..

not too long ago..he complaint abt her size..sayin she's fat n all...HELLOOO???!!!...u'r twice her size u dumb ass..y dun u look urself in da mirror b4 u say somethin like dat..sheesh..u'r like the asia version of Fat Joe..onli diff is dat he's cool n u'r a FOOL..

dun understand wat she is holdin on for man..looks?..erm..forget that one..character?..erm..got his license revoked in less than a yr..erm..caring?...erm..forget it... n he tinks no one else in this world will treat her better than him!!...*knocks on head* is there anythin inside???muz i hit on every bf's head??..

how is it that so many guys hav turned dumb..god...wat a national disgrace..

Now listen up fatty boi..its either u wise up n start treatin her rite..or i'm jus goin to hav to show u wat an Infantry Specialist can do to u *crack knuckles*..n y i was the most feared spec when my men jus got here..

Boulevard of broken ships...Pt 4

Lloyd..

Lloydie started school in SIM last mth..n ever since he has..he’s been havin probs too..i went to meet him in SIM campus ytd..n realized y anita was so insecure..cos the campus was filled with cute gers!!..Lol..no wonder so many ppl there neglect their studies..the moment they get there..die die muz start a new r’ship..even if he/she is a worse prospect..or u’d look like a freak..or a social outcast..hey hey..i’m speakin from experience ppl..

But Lloyd is different man..he wouldn’t even talk to any gers when we club..if we were talking to anyone..he would stand in the corner n tink of anita..u cant find guys like dat anymore ya know..i mean..if we’re talking abt runxing..den dats a diff matter..lol..jus kiddin..but lloyd seem troubled lately too..guess he really wan things to be alright between them..

They remain one of the cutest couples I’ve met..always ‘fightin’ n makin fun of each other..realli hope things would turn out fine for them..esp when Lloyd is so faithful..

Sophia..
Barely awake..i received a msg from Sophia too..tellin me her ‘mineral water’ has been stolen by someone else..’mineral water’ is a code name that onli we will understand..didnt figure that revealin his name will be a good idea..

She sounded pretty sad n disillusion of life was clouding her mind. Not sure if she had gotten over her ex yet..but here’s another blow..yeah she was disappointed..hai..thot maybe something would have worked out there..i guess the rite one is hard to find..but someone her qualities should have no problems finding someone she likes..guess this is wat happens when the past comes to haunt u..like she says…
What is the meaning of love??

bOrInG wEEk

phew.. finally scrapped past a really borin week whereby nth realli happened in camp.. haha... of course realli.. i sneaked out more often than not..hehe...
but still..it was bed from 7am to 3pm everyday...haha..borin stuff...luckily i had some games and movies to watch to kill time for me...my bed became a make shift cinema...should start chargin all of them...n dat would make me a veri rich boi...heheh...
was forced to take IPPT on thur and i was onli informed like on wed...damn!...it was champions league final nite...n my last wed to go for ladies nite...haha...but oh well...it was my ORD IPPT..so...might as well jus clear it...but to my amazement...or disgust rather...my fitness has taken a serious plunge...i din fail..but...hai..no gd no gd...tink i gotta start workin out liao...got to tone my body abit more..get abit bigger and tanner..hee...this current body is not acceptable..
Well but i did manage to catch Poseidon..not a bad movie..at least its not the cry ur heart out Titanic flicks u know...oh but i would strongly discourage anyone watchin scary movie 4 and Ice Age 2...it would be a pure waste of time...those 2 movies realli disappoint me..was lookin forward to a gd laugh...but hai...they were puttin me to slp instead...though the startin of scary movie 4 was quite funny though..but still...both is a 3 out of 10 ratin on the Alan Phua Board of Review...
Gotta go meet someone now...signin off here...ciao...

dA wEddin.. Part 1

ding dong bells!!... haha... last week was phyllis's wedding... qiang's elder sister... they were kind enuff to invite me over... n boi was i shocked to realise dat i was the onli one qiang invited among his frens.. haha... well yeap... there was no chance in hell i was goin to miss that...

i went into jb abt 2pm..n met up with qiang n wendy at ard 3...was realli beat when i got there...jus finished duty... after i met them...we went off to meet his family n relatives that were making over...n his mum looked 10 yrs younger!!...haha..that was where i met one of his cousin rosalind...who calls me syaitan....onli till todae did i know wat it means...haha...dats devil in malay...tsk tsk...i'm no devil..i'm sure she got her malay mixed up...she muz hav been referin to an angel..kekekeke...

anyway...i was soon at Grand Straits Gardens...the place where the weddin dinner was held...the atmosphere was great...with balloons filling up the walk way down the aisle...as guess were arrivin alreadi when we got there...things were abit messy...n i tried to help out in marshalling ppl to their sits...haha...but the problem is i couldnt read chinese...and the list for the guest from the bridegroom's side is in chinese..haha...so..i could onli help at the bride's side..haha.. the air-con there was exceptionally strong..haha...

it got all the gals shivering...man..should hav brought coats for the ladies..keekeekee...

dA wEddin...part 2

the food was pretty ok...but i felt we had more drinks realli...than food...the alcohol jus kept comin..haha...lucky i didn't take my flu medicine..hee...was down with flu n fever a few days b4 the weddin...

above is the make up pic of selena..haha..tink she's so much cuter with long hair than short..when she first saw me arrive at qiang's place...she ran over and shouted "carrot kor kor!!..."..i was "wat?!!!" carrot???..@#$%^*..lol...the name is alan..not carrot...haha..how could she mispronounce..haha..

after the weddin dinner...we continued partyin at a ktv in city square till it was abt 4pm...boi was i beat...almost KO there...n as for qiang n wendy..they were slpin all over the place with all kinds of postures...haha...he even mistook me for wendy n wanted to hug me!!...hahaha...

when we got bac to his place...we were as good as zombies..haha...n everyone jus knocked out like dat..haha..when i woke up...it was like the whole world was gone..haha...rushed bac to s'pore to celebrate mothers' day...n dat was pretty much another day gone... :p

Never Had a Dream Come True - S CLub 7

Everybody's got something, they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

Chorus :
I never had a dream come true
'Til the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you, yeah

Somewhere in my memory, I've lost all sense of time
And tommorow can never be 'cos yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or might have been
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

[Chorus]

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will, oh baby
You'll always be the one I know I'll never forget
It's no use looking back or wondering
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try
I just can't say goodbye, no, no, no, no

Unforgivin dreams... Part1

recently...i kept dreamin of the same old things...the things that happened in the past..the person i used to cherish so very much...i dunno y it has to come bac to haunt me...or maybe it has never gone away b4...i dunno..i really dun...
its something that ryan, qiang, wendy and jenn would kill me for talkin abt it again..hav done dat so many times...well..but its not like i like to talk abt it...i want it to go away too...i tink...

Its gettin irritating..i hate livin all the emotions i felt bac den all over again...dreams feel so real...like its happenin rite b4 ur eyes...i find myself still talkin to her in my dreams...y??...onli to shy away when her someone appears..its a sucky feelin...maybe thats y i avoid talkin to her now..wats happenin...

jenn once debated with me on y i'm workin so much to 'shape my financial future'...doin biz and all...is it really cos money is so impt to me...or is it to fill a void left behind...i know i treat my future seriously...but i cant give an accurate answer to the latter option too...this sucks big time....

I need to change my life...sometimes i hope my mind can be programmed...delete and store anythin as and when i wan it...

Unforgiving Dreams... Part 2

i was goin thru my stuff the other day and i came across a diary that i used to keep in my SISPEC days...it has many of my entries in it..entries abt her n how i felt bac den...from how much i missed her to the fights that built on no grounds at all...the lies she told...the break up..the funeral...harsh trainin etc...it remains the hardest part of my life so far..the part i can never forget..

as i continued readin...everythin played like a timeline rewind in my mind...readin thru every detail...tears rolled down...as i thot of everythin..includin how much support my mum showed me bac den...she was like the onli one there...

on the nite i got my fever last week...i listened to my mp3 player and accidentally scrolled into a folder used to store my own recordings..and the song i wrote for her was played into my ears...no one has ever heard it b4...except myself..and i can say...it din feel gd on the spot..
this has got to stop...regardless of whether she is havin prob with her bf or not...i dunno whether i wan to listen to news abt her from other ppl...but i find myself listenin..that has got to stop too!..

i pray for peaceful slps....god answer my prayer...

MoS - Part 1

On thurs nite...andy was out of camp...DY got to stay out dat dae...n the breadman 'jio' me the day b4 to go club @ MoS on thurs...afterall its SMOOVE @ the main Arena...I was supposed to stay in camp like a good boy...so i went to the officers' Mest...played some foosball...watched some tv...but nv realli enjoyed it...paced up & down..went back to bunk...played the guitar...n finally decided....cant stand it anymore!!...camp is boring stuff!...been locked up the whole week liao...this cant continue..so i got up from my bed n pulled my jeans on...called a few more kaki...n sneaked out of camp..hoping that the horrendous S2 will not pop up lookin for me...hee

MoS - Part 2

When I jus arrived at MoS...there was no queue...n i was tinkin..."oh no...this doesn't look good.." but as it got later till abt 12 plus...the crowd started floating in...kewl kewl...haha.. About 8 of us were there...including my cousin gary, eric and of cos...the breadman DaYang..Opened a bottle of chivas and started intoxicating ourselves..

After getting a little high..we went to the dance floor to groove to the music..n there was this maniac...climbed the cage...sat on top of it...shouted "party!!"...and fell straight to the ground...hahahaha....crazy ass...he din seem to move much after that..haha..

We met alot of ORD personnel dat were from my camp...and we were all clubbin there and decided to move into the cage...since things seemed more 'interesting' there...den the moment we got there...a fight broke out at the area we jus left...the fight was pretty bad...at first jus 5 bouncers came...den 10...den 15....n almost everyone there were holdin someone back...the guys fighting were like singapore's version of Fat Joe...dat explains the no. of bouncers needed..haha..

But throughout the nite..i kept bumpin into this gal in white...i wanted to dance with her earlier..but while i was workin on it..another gal in black suddenly came in started dancin with all of us..n hav to sae..the gal in black were dancin pretty hot..but still...bac to the gal in white.. She moved into the cage..n so did i...along with my guys...i saw her dancin in there and started to move towards her..den...a group of 5 'bapok' or more commanly labelled 'ah gua' flooded into the scene and started banging theirs asses against some of us...causin all of us to flee...haha...damn!..cant the bapoks wait?!

MoS - Part 3

Later I caught her in the cage again…she was quite deep in and I couldn’t speak to her…so I text her on my hp and showed it to her…(wat I said to her is confidential) hahaha…she den showed me a pic of her n her bf…n again…I text her..hey…guys n gals can be frens wat…at least at first la..haha..anyway…I was bein done the same when I enlisted…so…lol…

She smiled at me and was about to key in her no. as she went to my contact list…dats when her frens snatched my hp from her…refusing to let her key in her no…and as she was wearin a V-shaped spaghetti which was pretty low cut in front…her frens slotted my hp into her…mm…clothes to say the least?..haha…I was “WAT!!”..no way am I goin to reach for it..haha…under pressure…she returned my hp to me..

Soon it was 4am…and the music stopped…and the lights came up…we looked at each other and I wanted to speak to her…and suddenly her friends came over n hug her on her shoulder..and said “ni bu ke yi zhe yang de!..” (u cant be like dat one! – English version)..haha..we smiled n walked away…haha…I’ve never seen so much commotion arise from askin of a veri simple no. b4..haha..this will stick with me for a while..haha…

A nite filled with maniacs…fights…bapoks…and a weird hp incident…seem to worth the money..haha…and the effort to sneak out of camp..

I returned to camp at around 4 plus 5..after breakfast..n showered like 5 times to wash away the smell of cigarette smoke..haha…when I was finally done..ppl were wakin up for breakfast..and they were like "wa…u wake up so early ah…"…n I was…"mm…ya… :).." haha…

Knocked out till 2pm that dae…haha..

Unreasonable Punishment

Usually when there is a series of holidays coming up...or a shortage of manpower...extras (punishment duties) starts flying around for no apparent clause..it happened for january during CNY...n this month is no different..jus dat i wasn't involved in previous instances

I was handed 3 xtras for a REALLY REALLY REALLY serious 'offence' - Untidy Handwriting.
I know i know...i had the same reaction...'WHAT KIND OF OFFENCE IS THAT????'
Especially when he could read my handwriting word for word...number for number...n he read it out to me...*sigh*
"You tink i can read?...can la....but...go n sign extra..." thats what my encik said...*sigh*sigh*.

Whats worse...people get 3 xtras when they get caught for staying out illegally...n I've gotten the same punishment for...Untidy Handwriting????
I'm not the least convinced that that is justifiable nor is it a stated guideline for 'offences'. Maybe the PAP will be interested to hear abt this amidst the upcoming elections..*evil grins*
Oh well...they say when u enlist...u basically sell ur soul n body n lose all human rights..i guess they're right...
I hope he gets 30 xtras for twitchin his eyes too much and simply for being too ugly...cos...there seem to be no limits to the things u can get punished for...this is ridiculus...

If he were to talk to me nicely explaining the current shortage constraint...i would have covered the duty gladly..not happily of cos..but still...we're not unreasonable people...Now he's pissed everyone in the company yet again...Pissing Specialist..

I cant wait for the month to end to start clearing leave..n THEN....It's hello university and hello campus life again..hahahaha..

DY to be in campus too!...

Yeah...Bread brother (Dayang) finally received e letter from SMU stating his acceptance into the uni...finally another one of my closer dudes will be goin to the same uni as I..haha...Though i wasn't sure what they were looking for in his interview...asking him how many drums of tar he tinks is used in a yr to build roads in Singapore...well maybe I dunno the full story dats y...well anyway...3 cheers for the breadman for making it...hee hee hee hee..