cAtcHin a bReAther

Wow its been quite awhile since i blogged..been caught up with other things lately..finally a weekend to wind down n plan the road ahead...i jus realised there r alot of things left to be done..n i jus haven gone n done it...tsk tsk..poor time management..gonna plan for month of july now..got tonns of prep for uni to engage in..matriculation..orientation..workshops..tink i've got abt 7 items on my 'to-do' list related to uni..phew..

finally packed my rm too!!..n i realli liked this corner of my room..shown in da pic below..



gives the warm sunset feelin doesnt it?...pic a calm evenin by the beach...listenin to the waves wash up the shore..love it...i've installed tons of lamps n light deco to create that warm atmosphere in moi rm..ambience is da theme for moi room nowadays..hee hee…

waKe uP cALL

i went to meet qiang ytd n ran into this gal tryin to conduct a survey...tink she was from citibank..abt 2 yrs older than me..she asked me qns bout my plans etc..n she thot that i was from a JC..drawin da conclusion after learnin i'm headin to SMU this aug..

"if u were frm poly...u muz be veri smart rite...n got great results...most of the ppl around me din realli do well" dat was wat she said..which struck me..i was NEVER the smart one to begin with..in fact..i tink 90% of my ex gfs were smarter than me!! the onli difference was dat i wanted to enter the uni much more than by peers..that was the real reason..

tinkin of all this made me feel guilty..cos i know..from the bottom of my heart..i'm not achievin the things i wan to..n i'm not givin 100% at the moment.knowin it was how much i wanted the results in sch dat got me my grades..i wasnt workin as hard for things in the real world todae..
i'm goin to start layin out my blue print for july...and start bein the alan i used to be..

wEn wEn

Ppl ppl ppl....announcement to make...Alan Phua is uncle of another person...again...now...DUN U START CALLING ME UNCLE ALAN!!...Esp Anita & Rosalind...Liew...Saya onli 23 this yr...young charming man...kekekeke...

mOi gOd sIsta Stacy has given birth to her 2nd baby and her 2nd girl actually..da baby's name is wen wen...n...xuan xuan..the older one is alreadi startin to like the newest addition to the family..wen wen & xuan xuan...so cute!!haha..

she ran over one nite to wen wen and said..."come...jie jie give u 10 kisses...muack muack muack muack(til x10)...." haha how cute is that???!! hope they can grow up fine n in harmony...n try not to be like me when i was a kid k..keekeeekee...or u'd drive ur sista mad...like e way i did...keekeekee..

Time flies..realli..n while lookin at the baby in arms...my own sister went into deep thoughts.."hm..i tink i'm not ready for a baby yet.."...haha...dat was her thoughts!..honestly..hee..dun tink i'll be hearin baby cries too soon in the family..dunno y..my mum jus seem to be expectin me to get married early..er...with all due respect..."R U OUT OF UR MIND???" haha..its early days mum...

well...i always hav differin views from the rest of my family..not sure how i crashed into them though..haha..but i'm always the odd one out..i guess that make things interestin..like now..i'm absolutely in love with pasta n cheese!!..n last nite..we went for some pasta at pasta mania..n my dad had the look on his face like he was on 'Fear Factor'...haha...couldnt even finish half a plate of spagetti..

sHoPping spRee..

been to the PC fair todae and boy was it crowded man!!...i was sardines through n through..n it was a pretty borin one..no real deals i was lookin for..went there to accompany ryan b4 i took off for shoppin...ya know..since it was the great spore sale...

but this yr has been pretty disappointin in general..didnt realli spot as much bargains or at least things that would hav realli attracted me...maybe i was expecting alot..i dunno..anyway...still..
haha...i could find things dat i liked...but some were pretty ex..


i tink i've been a Topman fanatic of late!!..n i dunno y!!..haha..i bought another 2 t-shirts a few days ago n today scooped another shirt under the same label..but this time from a diff outlet..i'm eyeing this retro outfit from Topman too..tink it'll be so cute..together with some Ray-Ban classic shades..haha...it'll jus be a matter of time till i lay my hands on them..keke...

i've also fished 2 ties and an espirit t-shirt...realli love the white tie man..the pic does not do it justice..its so classy when u see it first hand..tink i gonna wear it for my sis's weddin this dec..still...i hav yet to find a white blazer..or at least cream..something light coloured will do..been quite in favour of white lately..tink can join PAP liao..Lol...

Ryan 22nd Bday!! Pt 1

Last sat we celebrated Ryan's 22nd Bday at Wala Wala... whereby the birthday boi was early..n the organiser (me) was late... yet again...haha... hey!... dat was due to traffic..er...n also cos anita kept pesterin to go to the book fair @ suntec..haha..

the car park at suntec was terrible...we circled for 15mins n still no sign of a lot..We even had to drop Runxing first cos his bowels wouldnt wait any longer..n even after he was done..we still haven got our lot..Lol..

after so so so much trouble to get the car parked..anita & lloyd went up to the convention hall to find that the books on sale were all chinese books from chinese publishing companies...'diao...'LOL...told u dun go liao...haha..

nonetheless..i got the cake from suntec and rushed down to holland V by 8pm(meeting time 7.15pm)..Lol...traffic la!...

Ryan 22nd Bday!! Pt 2

I went thru some planning on how to not let ryan see the cake first..since they were alreadi in wala wala...n i negotiated with the waitress for a while b4 lettin her take the cake upstairs..was pretty hungry when i met up with them..n had some finger food..their mussles are GREAT!!..baked..with bread crums on it(sorry dayang!!..eatin u again..)...

'The Unexpected' flooded the scene around 9.50pm and started with a slow song..i wonder y..anti climax..haha..but they eventually grooved on and sang an edited version of 'I will survive' to a guy called darren..singin on how his self-proclaimed 10inch dick was onli 4...Lol...and lots of funny lyrics..had a great laugh dat nite..haha..they sang Ryan a Bday Song too...should have given them more details of ryan..so they could make up a song n make fun of him..*evil grinz*

Ryan 22nd Bday!! Pt 3

When Ryan went to the toilet..we came up with a plan on how to make sure he was on the losing end when we 'chai quan'...so that we could get him to drink more...but Roland that stupid ass jus had to lose more even when he wasn't the target..Stupid Dog!!(like he always call the others)...

Eventually we did get ryan to drink...but it werent effective..so den we started to propose a toast or rather toasts to him..one by one by one by one...haha...n there were 6 other of us..haha..creative eh...die die muz make him drunk..

Soon ryan was seein stars...could see him stare into space...n face all red..Lol...but we couldnt force more alcohol down his throat n he didnt get drunk...Damn!! better try next yr...

After Wala Wala we took off to Bukit Timah for supper and that was where we cut the cake..we intended for the cake to be cut in the pub..but we were too carried away with all the drinkin..haha..so yeah..

After the supper it was pretty much home for all of us especially Anita who was havin her Chinese O levels on the following mon..I got home by 3.30am n chilled for a while..den it was book in for duty(Boring!!)..

fOOd fOr tHot...Pt1

last mon nite..andy boi came over to my bed to n we had a realli realli long chat..abt many many things..biz..the stock markets..wat our parents did n how they got successful..fast cars..cool stuffs..n our private lives b4 the army..

but it was the latter that sort of struck my attention for a while..he seemed quite shocked with my choice of girlfriends in da past..he felt that i should probably have found someone that were closer to my 'level' as he puts it..someone more intelligent n from better backgrounds..

i can still remember quite clearly the way he put it.."dun u tink its like a faultline?..like its jus not natural..like destroyin the perfect family tree.." "dun u wanna look for someone with a family background thats on par with u?.."

this issue got me thinkin...not dat i realli felt i'm from the higher level or anythin..actually i dun realli pay attention to their backgrounds or rather would even prefer if they werent rich..cos they'd prob be spoilt if they were..

but i started to tink of this issue cos i also read a few mths ago on wat Robert Kiyosaki stated was impt for someone to succeed..n one of the things he stated was a partner with similar dreams n goals..

n when i took a trip down memory lane..i found myself not progressin when i was attached..in fact..some could nv understand y i needed to work hard..n e last one demanded alot of attention..maybe its the diff family background that generates diff tinkin n priorities..

fOOd fOr tHot...Pt2

i'm ambitious i admit..i'm not willin to jus go with the flow..n end up an average employee..but its not like i'm money crazy..cos yet again..like Robert Kiyosaki says..

"money is not the most impt thing in life..but it seems to affect everything that is..." married couples quarrel over money..kids get deprived of tiertiary education due to lack of funds..parents end up workin 24-7 n kids nv get to see them..retired parents cant retire in peace..etc etc etc..it does affect everything that is impt..

maybe if i had gotten a partner that were able to look at the big pic..they would hav been able to understand y i had to strive..

feels kinda confused on wat i'll do in da future..qiang had a long talk to me on this issue too..but it din seem to help me make up my mind..i dunno..maybe i'll jus wait..n see wat happens..i'm still young anyway...

Boulevard of broken ships... Pt 1

Wow..haven logged in for a while..so much has happened this week…but none seem to be good news..though it din involve me actually..but it implicated those around me..

Qiang…

Remains the one I worry the most..loads of probs at work and his gf jus wont give him peace..she’s like such a control freak..everything he does is wrong..ridiculous..one of his colleagues were leavin n they had a farewell dinner last nite..qiang informed her early that he wun be joinin her for dinner..she was ok at first but start blowin her top off 2 hours later blaming him for not reporting on wat n where he were..BUT SHE KNEW HE WAS AT THE DINNER!!..

There was dinner at home for her but she chose not to eat it..prob to spike him..n while being angry n frustrated..qiang went to buy her dinner still..n instead of calmin down she made a scene yet again n cried..wat’s her issue man?!?

He bought her a decent meal n had to settle for cup noodles himself to save money..n all she ever does was to repay with temperament..She could nv understand y he had to work OT..n made a big fuss if he had to work late..n when he tries to go home early to accompany her..she complaints too..simply becos he went online when he was home..muz he be physically huggin her 24-7 for him to be considered accompanyin her???..there wasn’t much to do at home..they could surf together or something..

maybe next time qiang should sit down n jus look at her..dat would make her happy…

Work late..its ur fault..come home early its ur fault..farewell dinner its ur fault..
Its ur fault..Its ur fault..Its ur fault..Its ur fault..Its ur fault..Its ur fault..

Boulevard of broken ships...Pt 2

Wendy…

Received a msg from wen ytd n found out that she broke up with her bf…again…told me they quarreled a lot n had to go separate ways…she even got drunk on wed nite…n were carried home..sheesh..she was nv drunk in her whole life b4..

i dun understand y ken has to pick issues all the time too..i bumped into them e last time n he was starrin at me as if he was tryin to kill me with his eyes..

He even made an issue of a photo dat wen n me took while they were not together b4 they patched..WTH...can he wake up his ideas n start growin up..fancy N level graduate who inspires nth more than to play Lan for life..n expects to earn 10k/mth in da future..hello!! *knocks on head* “is there anything inside????”

She deserves someone way better than him man..n he doesn’t realize it..stupid ass..he would nv need to wear a helmet for anything..cos he is a walkin one – Nothing ever gets in..

Boulevard of broken ships...Pt 3

Jenn...

mOi gan mei mei similarly dropped me a couple of msg too...but at abt 3am..apparently she n her bf jus quarelled..over somethin that is once again ridiculous..he left some ashes in the toilet..and expected her to clean up his mess..when she refused..he snapped n insisted its her duty as a gf to do so..wats e deal u spoilt brat!!..clean up ur own mess man..such a disgrace to the male race..Chauvenist..ego..pig..

Ego cant go worse than this man..n while he has all kinds of excuses not to spend time with her like no money n time..he can spend his weekends out with his guy frens..wats the deal man..n he expects her to stay home n clean his room!!..ego ego ego..

not too long ago..he complaint abt her size..sayin she's fat n all...HELLOOO???!!!...u'r twice her size u dumb ass..y dun u look urself in da mirror b4 u say somethin like dat..sheesh..u'r like the asia version of Fat Joe..onli diff is dat he's cool n u'r a FOOL..

dun understand wat she is holdin on for man..looks?..erm..forget that one..character?..erm..got his license revoked in less than a yr..erm..caring?...erm..forget it... n he tinks no one else in this world will treat her better than him!!...*knocks on head* is there anythin inside???muz i hit on every bf's head??..

how is it that so many guys hav turned dumb..god...wat a national disgrace..

Now listen up fatty boi..its either u wise up n start treatin her rite..or i'm jus goin to hav to show u wat an Infantry Specialist can do to u *crack knuckles*..n y i was the most feared spec when my men jus got here..

Boulevard of broken ships...Pt 4

Lloyd..

Lloydie started school in SIM last mth..n ever since he has..he’s been havin probs too..i went to meet him in SIM campus ytd..n realized y anita was so insecure..cos the campus was filled with cute gers!!..Lol..no wonder so many ppl there neglect their studies..the moment they get there..die die muz start a new r’ship..even if he/she is a worse prospect..or u’d look like a freak..or a social outcast..hey hey..i’m speakin from experience ppl..

But Lloyd is different man..he wouldn’t even talk to any gers when we club..if we were talking to anyone..he would stand in the corner n tink of anita..u cant find guys like dat anymore ya know..i mean..if we’re talking abt runxing..den dats a diff matter..lol..jus kiddin..but lloyd seem troubled lately too..guess he really wan things to be alright between them..

They remain one of the cutest couples I’ve met..always ‘fightin’ n makin fun of each other..realli hope things would turn out fine for them..esp when Lloyd is so faithful..

Sophia..
Barely awake..i received a msg from Sophia too..tellin me her ‘mineral water’ has been stolen by someone else..’mineral water’ is a code name that onli we will understand..didnt figure that revealin his name will be a good idea..

She sounded pretty sad n disillusion of life was clouding her mind. Not sure if she had gotten over her ex yet..but here’s another blow..yeah she was disappointed..hai..thot maybe something would have worked out there..i guess the rite one is hard to find..but someone her qualities should have no problems finding someone she likes..guess this is wat happens when the past comes to haunt u..like she says…
What is the meaning of love??

bOrInG wEEk

phew.. finally scrapped past a really borin week whereby nth realli happened in camp.. haha... of course realli.. i sneaked out more often than not..hehe...
but still..it was bed from 7am to 3pm everyday...haha..borin stuff...luckily i had some games and movies to watch to kill time for me...my bed became a make shift cinema...should start chargin all of them...n dat would make me a veri rich boi...heheh...
was forced to take IPPT on thur and i was onli informed like on wed...damn!...it was champions league final nite...n my last wed to go for ladies nite...haha...but oh well...it was my ORD IPPT..so...might as well jus clear it...but to my amazement...or disgust rather...my fitness has taken a serious plunge...i din fail..but...hai..no gd no gd...tink i gotta start workin out liao...got to tone my body abit more..get abit bigger and tanner..hee...this current body is not acceptable..
Well but i did manage to catch Poseidon..not a bad movie..at least its not the cry ur heart out Titanic flicks u know...oh but i would strongly discourage anyone watchin scary movie 4 and Ice Age 2...it would be a pure waste of time...those 2 movies realli disappoint me..was lookin forward to a gd laugh...but hai...they were puttin me to slp instead...though the startin of scary movie 4 was quite funny though..but still...both is a 3 out of 10 ratin on the Alan Phua Board of Review...
Gotta go meet someone now...signin off here...ciao...

dA wEddin.. Part 1

ding dong bells!!... haha... last week was phyllis's wedding... qiang's elder sister... they were kind enuff to invite me over... n boi was i shocked to realise dat i was the onli one qiang invited among his frens.. haha... well yeap... there was no chance in hell i was goin to miss that...

i went into jb abt 2pm..n met up with qiang n wendy at ard 3...was realli beat when i got there...jus finished duty... after i met them...we went off to meet his family n relatives that were making over...n his mum looked 10 yrs younger!!...haha..that was where i met one of his cousin rosalind...who calls me syaitan....onli till todae did i know wat it means...haha...dats devil in malay...tsk tsk...i'm no devil..i'm sure she got her malay mixed up...she muz hav been referin to an angel..kekekeke...

anyway...i was soon at Grand Straits Gardens...the place where the weddin dinner was held...the atmosphere was great...with balloons filling up the walk way down the aisle...as guess were arrivin alreadi when we got there...things were abit messy...n i tried to help out in marshalling ppl to their sits...haha...but the problem is i couldnt read chinese...and the list for the guest from the bridegroom's side is in chinese..haha...so..i could onli help at the bride's side..haha.. the air-con there was exceptionally strong..haha...

it got all the gals shivering...man..should hav brought coats for the ladies..keekeekee...

dA wEddin...part 2

the food was pretty ok...but i felt we had more drinks realli...than food...the alcohol jus kept comin..haha...lucky i didn't take my flu medicine..hee...was down with flu n fever a few days b4 the weddin...

above is the make up pic of selena..haha..tink she's so much cuter with long hair than short..when she first saw me arrive at qiang's place...she ran over and shouted "carrot kor kor!!..."..i was "wat?!!!" carrot???..@#$%^*..lol...the name is alan..not carrot...haha..how could she mispronounce..haha..

after the weddin dinner...we continued partyin at a ktv in city square till it was abt 4pm...boi was i beat...almost KO there...n as for qiang n wendy..they were slpin all over the place with all kinds of postures...haha...he even mistook me for wendy n wanted to hug me!!...hahaha...

when we got bac to his place...we were as good as zombies..haha...n everyone jus knocked out like dat..haha..when i woke up...it was like the whole world was gone..haha...rushed bac to s'pore to celebrate mothers' day...n dat was pretty much another day gone... :p

Never Had a Dream Come True - S CLub 7

Everybody's got something, they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

Chorus :
I never had a dream come true
'Til the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you, yeah

Somewhere in my memory, I've lost all sense of time
And tommorow can never be 'cos yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or might have been
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

[Chorus]

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will, oh baby
You'll always be the one I know I'll never forget
It's no use looking back or wondering
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try
I just can't say goodbye, no, no, no, no

Unforgivin dreams... Part1

recently...i kept dreamin of the same old things...the things that happened in the past..the person i used to cherish so very much...i dunno y it has to come bac to haunt me...or maybe it has never gone away b4...i dunno..i really dun...
its something that ryan, qiang, wendy and jenn would kill me for talkin abt it again..hav done dat so many times...well..but its not like i like to talk abt it...i want it to go away too...i tink...

Its gettin irritating..i hate livin all the emotions i felt bac den all over again...dreams feel so real...like its happenin rite b4 ur eyes...i find myself still talkin to her in my dreams...y??...onli to shy away when her someone appears..its a sucky feelin...maybe thats y i avoid talkin to her now..wats happenin...

jenn once debated with me on y i'm workin so much to 'shape my financial future'...doin biz and all...is it really cos money is so impt to me...or is it to fill a void left behind...i know i treat my future seriously...but i cant give an accurate answer to the latter option too...this sucks big time....

I need to change my life...sometimes i hope my mind can be programmed...delete and store anythin as and when i wan it...

Unforgiving Dreams... Part 2

i was goin thru my stuff the other day and i came across a diary that i used to keep in my SISPEC days...it has many of my entries in it..entries abt her n how i felt bac den...from how much i missed her to the fights that built on no grounds at all...the lies she told...the break up..the funeral...harsh trainin etc...it remains the hardest part of my life so far..the part i can never forget..

as i continued readin...everythin played like a timeline rewind in my mind...readin thru every detail...tears rolled down...as i thot of everythin..includin how much support my mum showed me bac den...she was like the onli one there...

on the nite i got my fever last week...i listened to my mp3 player and accidentally scrolled into a folder used to store my own recordings..and the song i wrote for her was played into my ears...no one has ever heard it b4...except myself..and i can say...it din feel gd on the spot..
this has got to stop...regardless of whether she is havin prob with her bf or not...i dunno whether i wan to listen to news abt her from other ppl...but i find myself listenin..that has got to stop too!..

i pray for peaceful slps....god answer my prayer...

MoS - Part 1

On thurs nite...andy was out of camp...DY got to stay out dat dae...n the breadman 'jio' me the day b4 to go club @ MoS on thurs...afterall its SMOOVE @ the main Arena...I was supposed to stay in camp like a good boy...so i went to the officers' Mest...played some foosball...watched some tv...but nv realli enjoyed it...paced up & down..went back to bunk...played the guitar...n finally decided....cant stand it anymore!!...camp is boring stuff!...been locked up the whole week liao...this cant continue..so i got up from my bed n pulled my jeans on...called a few more kaki...n sneaked out of camp..hoping that the horrendous S2 will not pop up lookin for me...hee